08.11.26

-Delusional-

I currently work a part-time job right now that takes up about 16 hours of my week.

Its a great job. I make over $500 every 2 weeks.

In September, my temporary hire is going to end with the company.

I wonder if I can handle a full-time job.

To be honest, I rather say I made a living off my talent as a songwriter, producer, singer, rapper than just clock in somewhere for 8 hours a day to make financial gains.

But is thinking like this delusional? Maybe I like being delusional.

But I got other options to fall back on working-wise so I’m not too worried though. Just keep me in your prayers & thoughts.

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08.13.26

-The Comeback Year-

all i wanted for a long while was just friends to hang with, women to sleep with, and a job to work at.

all this have come true this year, for which i am grateful for.

last year at this time, i was just rotting at home playing video games.

i realized that all it takes is just one good year to nullify and negate all the effects and reality of several past bad years.

overall, i am excited to build upon the groundworks of this year onto next year.

wanna just be focused on getting paychecks, managing my money well, encouraging my creative side and its endeavors, and hopefully finding love.

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08.17.26

-Behind But Not Really-

In many sense, I feel behind in life.

In an objective sense of comparison, this is very much true.

I have not experienced fatherhood or marriage with a spouse.

I have yet to get my first big boy job as a full-time position somewhere (albeit due to me pursuing music).

I still live at my parents and have yet to get my own place.

Statistically speaking, I could very well be labeled as a “failure to launch”.

Yet… I don’t feel behind.

I know that a lot of my heart’s yearning and desires could come true.

Many people get married in their late 30s or early 40s.

And if they are happy with their spouse, does it truly matter that this life happening didnt occur when they were younger?

Many people find their life calling and go through multiple career changes.

My mom’s friend became a licensed vocational nurse in her 50s.

Does that mean her 20s, 30s, and 40s all mounted to nothing? (that be incredibly dismissive!)

considering that an average life span is at least 70 years with modern technology, i am not sweating nor worrying about anything.

i have all my basic necessities met like food, water, shelter, and mode of transportation.

i think the wise thing for me is to figure out what’s best for me and what i truly want. to take proactive steps in living the life that makes me feel fulfilled.

cause if all the aforementioned things do occur later in life, does it matter that such wasnt the case in my earlier years?

it sounds like i am just making excuses for myself, but i dont think i am.

i have the rest of my life to figure things out and improve myself, and thats the silver lining… even if i am statiscally behind everyone.

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08.29.26

-Next Move-

My temporary hire with the company I am under employment for is ending soon.

I thought about what my next move could be.

I could work again under employment with my father. He does garment import/export and manufacturing and salesman sides of clothing in Mexico.

The pros I can think of is I’ll improve on Spanish/Espanol, which would be cool (im californian raised guys..)

The con would be just being cramped up with my dad all the time (which isnt a sleight against him, but more of just something not preferable).

I could get sober for the rest of the year and then apply for teaching english in korea for the spring semester.

The pros I can think of is I can live in Korea (i like korea hehe).

The cons would be I would have to be sober from weed for all my duration of time there (which is doable and something I want to embark on).

A crazy new plan I would have is I would quit smoking cigarettes while quitting weed. I would only drink Soju on social occassions with people.

Furthermore, I would want to do more translator work eventually and not iust teach English.

If I can also help promote the love and growth of the game of basketball for the korean population, then I would be jazzed as well.

A last set of next move possibility I thought of was giving live performance of music a chance.

I hire a good manager who helps me get paid, get gigs, get shows, etc.

I cut him a 15% all profit made cut from whatever opportunity he helps me get.

And I actually fulfill my once inspired dream of being a renowned musician and artist.

I want to eventually perform live with a group and we’ll be called, Kevin Chun & The Musical Friends.

My goal is like to be like WuTang Clan but for like indie singer songwriting people.

I want people to be fans and supporters of the Musical Friends, but also endorsing and supporting Kevin & The Musical Friends.

These are the only options that seem viable and good to me, at the moment.

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09.09.26

-The Content Years-

I realize more and more that life is about being content.

Only have video games… then learn to be content with that.

Only got weed? Learn to be content with that.

With the age of accessibility, I feel that so many next great experiences are waiting to happen.

That next manga I fall in love with after One Piece ends? Sign me up.

That next video game that makes me appreciate the artform of video games? Sign me up.

And of course, this expands to more substancial facets of life… like doing the things I envision a complete version of myself would be doing.

Like improving on languages, finding a netflix series i really like, and of course living for more than what I currently meekly do.

I don’t cling to the ambition of wanting the future to unfold, but I’m content of my current present and will most likely be content when the future does come about.

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